This is kind of rambling, but I'm glad there is a space for this: I have a small group of amazing friends, but there is something bothering me (or a few things) that I can't really talk to them about. Here's the deal: My friends are all successful. They have money, nice houses, and own their own businesses. They are also super healthy. They work out all the time and look amazing (we're in our early 40's). When we all met, I was right there with them! But a few years ago I got sick. I gained a bunch of weight because I was on steroids and a few other meds that make you gain weight. Then I got laid off twice in one year. I'm also divorced with two boys. It's so hard. I really want to feel beautiful again. I was so beautiful before this. Now every picture I see of myself makes me want to cry. Having no money is making it worse. Two of my friends just drove up to Colorado and rented a cabin for a week. We've all been quarantined, so they just wanted to get out of the heat. No one even asked if I wanted to go. They also had a conversation recently about how they all put each other as executers on each other's Will. Again, I was not a part of that. It was the first I'd heard of it. I hate feeling pitied and/or left out. When I do try to open up it's obvious they don't get it. I've made so many bad decisions that started with marrying my ex. I feel like they did everything right. I'm just sad and feeling isolated by my situation.